Thoughts Tuesday #1: WHEN TO LET GO?
4:22 PM
“If
something or someone you’re holding close to your heart makes you question who
you really are as a person, maybe it’s time to let that something or someone go.
Don’t compromise who you are for a thing or person you’re not sure is worthy of
the real you.”
- thelatebloomer11 -
As I’m writing
this, I’m comfortably seated on our couch by the window while anxiously waiting
for the washing machine to finish spinning so I can start with the dreaded
hanging of clothes. Yep, it’s my least favorite part of doing the laundry. Ya know
what’s my most favorite part? Folding of newly washed clothes. YES!!! For some
reason, I find it relaxing. Anyway, this post is of course not about laundry. I
just want to type away my thoughts on a Tuesday, but before I let you into my
messy mind, how was your weekend?
If you asked me,
I’d say it’s pretty interesting. This past weekend (SAT-MON) was my hubby’s
off. Believe it or not, despite seeing each other everyday, I still always look
forward to his OFFs. I like the thought of waking up to a day where I know we
can simply lounge the whole day together. We enjoy doing lots of things
together and we talk a lot. We can talk for hours and hours and still not get
tired of each other. Needless to say, I really like his company. It is the
ultimate reason why I don’t really wanna go out or have other plans than be
with him during his rest days. That and well, the fact that I am a true-blue
home-buddy.
I don’t know if
anyone could relate to this, but I find home as the most relaxing place in the
world. I can always think and find new things for me to do when I am at home.
I’m always excited and I feel invigorated when I’m at home. On the other hand,
I easily get drained of energy whenever I’m outside. You probably already got
it by now but just in case you haven’t, YES, I’m a big introvert. And some
people may not know this about me or refuse to believe that about me but
it’s true, I’m an introvert. I may not necessarily be the Shy-type Introvert
but I certainly am not the outgoing type.
Now, I don’t essentially
hate being around people; it’s just not my thing to be outside a lot. I have
friends who I hang out with occasionally but only those friends who know me well (and there’s really not a lot of them) would know and understand that I’m really
NOT an outgoing person and that it takes me a tremendous amount of effort to
get myself out of the house. Yes, I’m the boring type of person, probably your
least type of person in the world. But I’m also the type of person who you can
run to when you need someone to listen to you.
When I was in
high school, I’ve had “friends” who
knew me only when they need someone they can cry on because I’m that type of
person. I listen. I’m not the “fun and adventurous” type. I once tried to be
but it didn’t work out ‘coz that’s just not who I am. That’s why I really don’t blame those who
were only close to me for “a season”
because everyone has their own preferences.
Wait a minute!
What’s going on here? Hahaha! Why did this suddenly become all about my high-school
life? LOL. Let’s just say that something about yesterday made me re-think of my
choices in life and whom I want to associate myself with. Yesterday just made
me once again, very thankful of having my precious hubby not just a husband but
a best friend, too. He was very sensitive of my actions and emotions yesterday.
He noticed right away that something
happened and that whatever that was, it tore me up inside and made me feel very
sad. What he did was simple. He just made me feel that my thoughts regardless
of how complicated they maybe at times (or
most of the time, because it’s woman-nature to complicate things - LOL)
matter to him.
So he listened. He just listened until it slowly felt okay, until
I was able to finally curve my lips into a smile. After letting out so many sighs, I
smiled and then I decided it’s time. It's time to let go.
***
I hope you all
had a wonderful weekend and may we all have a great week ahead of us.
0 comments